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25/01/24 - Statistical Finite Element Modelling for Misspecified SST Simulation and Inversion

My first PhD talk! If you wanted to see a part of my PhD, this would be a good place to start. Thanks to the Complex Systems Seminar group.

25/01/24 - Imposter Syndrome and the PhD

Hey! I haven't had the chance to write here for some time, lets restart with some personal stuff. 

I originally made this website, logo, and a bunch of other stuff early on in my fourth (Hons.) year of Uni as an attempt to sort of brand-myself before I stepped out into the wide world of industry. While I don't regret any of that (it has served me well, taught me a few things, and I will continue to use it) at the time I was conflicted. 

On one hand, I wanted money. Which anybody can relate to. Sick of staying home, sick of earning casual money, sick of being a 'young adult', and wanting to become a 'full adult', whatever those terms mean to you and yours.

Being an Honours student meant the end of the pseudo-guaranteed track for a student. The point at which the guardrails sort of come down, and nobody is there to tell you where to go next.

On the other hand, I wanted to continue being a student in some capacity. I felt that I knew so little when I looked up at my teachers that I couldn't possibly be ready for what was next. Learning is so powerful, and is just this seemingly endless pit you can pull from.

Unfortunately, doing more undergraduate work was out of the question. The only options for continued student work were for me to pursue some kind of Masters Degree, likely in Data Science, or perhaps some kind of Mathematical Finance/Risk work, or a PhD. But a PhD would be out of the question right? I mean how do you even begin to go down that track?

"Easily." Is what my supervisor told me at the time. Just log in here, write a bit about this, tick some boxes about the scholarships you want to apply for, and then we'll see what happens.

Okay, I'll continue looking for work though, I mean I couldn't possibly get funded for a PhD right? I don't want to spend tens of thousands doing one either, this just a pie in the sky kinda thing right? I mean if I compare myself to my peers there is no way that...

BAM!

RTP Stipend! 

My entire life has been a series of these kinds of surprises, and at each step I have essentially stopped myself from applying or trying to do things, because I have assessed my own abilities using my own warped calculus. As opposed to just going for it anyway. 

Imposter syndrome stops us all from even applying for the things we want to achieve, and its important to recognise that your brain sucks at making that decision. 

08/01/22 - Data Science at 4CDA

Had the chance these past months to work with the people at 4CDA as an intern on a variety of problems related to Data Science, Visualisation and Consultation. While I have to keep the details light, I can say with confidence that it was a real deer in the headlights situation for me, getting to experience solving real world problems using the skills I had accrued in my education so far. 

Rather than just talk about what I did, or what I felt- I thought it would be good to hone in on that feeling I experienced and note down what I felt most surprised with, alongside how I dealt with it.

So yeah, many, many lessons learnt. A lot of character building for me personally. What a fantastic experience though, to be treated like a real consultee, and given so much freedom to explore solutions to problems. I did manage to catch covid though...

12/03/22 - Ready, Trader, Go!

For a while now, investing has been an interest of mine. Anybody who has taken a high enough level high-school math course or an intro finance course will know the keyword- Compound Interest. It stood to reason in my 18 year old mind that if I invested all the money I had ASAP, I would see big gains down the line. 

I have seen money come and money go since. I definitely don't gamble enough to play the options game, and I'm not so held back I only invest in ETF's, or Exchange Traded Funds- the investing equivalent of a comfortable two decade old couch you can't climb out of. But on top of that, I have since learnt a lot about computer algorithms, and time series analysis- two fields I thought would put me in a place to start learning about algorithmic trading.

One of the largest firms in this space is Optiver, who as far as I can tell, utilise a fast infrastructure to execute a neutral, pairs-trading strategy. They are obviously always on the lookout for new talent, students out of university who are still neuro-plastitic enough to apply and execute advanced and innovating algorithms. To that end, they have a competition called, Ready, Trader, Go! which I've been fortunate enough to be apart of.

The competition is still going too, the first round (which unfortunately I was too busy to be a part of) finished on the 10th. It has been a real learning experience.

Part of the frustrations of mathematicians all over I'm sure is computational complexity vs. mathematical complexity. A good example of this is matrix multiplication, which high school students can do fairly easily if you tell them the rules, but computers must implement by more complex means so as to not be slowed to a crawl. 

So far in this competition, I have had many ideas I wanted to implement. But, I have so far been unable to execute on any of them, as the underlying programming necessary to recreate them has eclipsed my programming ability. My frustration grows, but perhaps if I finish my work next week, I'll be able to figure it out, come back here, and discuss my triumphs. 

Regardless, the competition is definitely a good experience, you get to work with a real business codebase, which to someone who has only ever programmed for myself, has been terrifying- but as with most terrifying experiences, a fantastic opportunity to learn.

04/03/22 - Always Carry a Speakable Piece of Maths.

Early January, I saw a post in the Facebook group >implying we can discuss mathematics about a mathematics blog aimed broadly at students in university. Being part of the target demographic, I obviously began investigating and found a whole array of useful and fun stuff to pick apart. Examining further I found a particularly useful post titled, Get a Maths Job which piqued my interest even further. I even went so far as to contact the author, Adrian Dudek, and found that he was the editor of the entire blog! Fast forward a bit, my blog post I posted for submission as part of the AMSI VRS was accepted to his website, and you can find the link here

It's titled, Always Carry a Speakable Piece of Maths and focuses on why it can be so hard to be a mathematician in a world of people who despise their middle-school math experiences.

Just goes to show you how a simple email can get gears moving, all you have to do is press send.

09/02/22 - AMSI VRS Fun

Was given the opportunity to discuss my research into the emergent properties of phase transitions in time series data this morning as part of Australian Mathematical Sciences Institute's 2022 Vacation Research Scholarship. Lots of fun- and a great opportunity to talk with people who know what it's like to play around with 300gb of simulated data! Kindred spirits. More info here.